When I first heard you, I could feelthe future... It was made of all those dreams I've been carrying on for lives. When I am close to you, I can see in your eyes that I live in that reflection. I spend evenings creating cliches phrases to describe what I feel for you. They come late andstumbling on other thoughts, they get lost, before I can speak... They become sweat when I see you. Sweating those words I hope they can be written on your body when I squeeze you with a visceral embrace. I want them tattooed on your skin so you won't forget the effect you have on me. When you go away, I repeat to myself your stories so they can become your presence in mental verses that entertain the long hours that insist on keeping us apart. Some days the fears that bounds us whisper tales to my ears, contradicting all the love poems we create together when tangling our bodies in our late night dances... From far away I see you hiding behind the turbulence of new emotions. My soul scream for you to dive into their waves, but my body swims away with a naive intention to protect my heart. In vain my arms try to reach shore not knowing the heart that once beat inside me is long pounding in your ears... According to your own pace... From here, lacking oxygen in every cell, I can only observe still, hoping someday the music will start again... On one of those late nights with so much,so much... I love you.
Pensando em que nome escolher para esse blog, a primeira coisa que me veio a cabeca foi a explicacao que Samuel Beckett deu sobre sua peca Esperando Godot: "it is what it is". Entao fiquei pensando porque o nome que eu daria para meu blog teria que ser uma explicacao. Quem sabe porque me explico o tempo todo, talvez porque na confusao que eh tentar saber quem eh Moe, acabo me explicando e somente sendo uma explicacao. Analisando essa conclusao sinto vergonha, mas como sentir vergonha do que sou em relacao a mim mesma?: confusao. Olho pra cima e vejo um papel pregado na parede de meu quarto que diz: "CHAOS - Where Brilliant Dreams are Born.
Before the beginning of great brilliance, there must be Chaos. Before a brilliant person begins something great, they must look foolish to the crowd".
Enfim, com muitas pretensoes, vamos as confusoes. Vale a pena tentar porque eu acho que... (ok, sem explicacoes. Ou nao...).
Ps: meu teclado nao tem acentos, assim que... (ok, sem explicacoes. Ou nao...).